Tuesday 29 April 2014

Desert Bride


Desert Bride

He calls me chicken glove
and marvels at my trank,
my slender stitched fourchettes,
my tiny gussets stitched and slashed
and quirked to shape. His fingers
flute my slinky mort.
My round seams beam
his pleasure stake.


Constant

Constant

The weather, the skies overhead changing,
the sea and its currents,
the mind and the constant images of life,
the earth and the glory of it,
the birdsong in the morning.
The body minding itself from harm.
Memories of those we love.
Intentions for good in the future.
The land like a rock for our feet.
Life in all its forms.
The torment of the day.
The beauty of the day.
The truth of beauty.
The dawn of each morning.
The first born child.
Mothers and fathers.
Sex.
Seasons turning from white to gold.
Ice caps in the frozen North.

Monday 28 April 2014

Snapshots -Spain

Snapshots - Spain

Aloe verde spikes against the hard blue Spanish sky.
Brown arid stretches of land,
the sun sucking and endless seasons.
The swish of  water sprinklers.
Shouts of the border guards.
Empty villages at three o' clock.
Stray dogs pack, yap into the yellow haze.
Mothers, call their children, "Ninos, ninos, ven aqui."

The silence above the blue sea and below the blue sky,
the rush of  waves over rocks.
the smell of the dumping ground,
where rats bred in winter.
Auntie Betty, smiling in her first agonies of Alzheimer's.
Empty air, legs hot and red, blisters on children's shoulders,
cars breaking down, money gone. Two pesetas left and an empty house.


A flight to Morocco, the death of a friend, a pauper's funeral.
Small smiles, smashed toys and tumbled chairs, a grip around the throat.
A lone cry for help in the black warm night.
A body carried out to sea by mistake.
A glass of beer left on the bar.
A baby crying in desperation.

Walks to empty memories,
Women in black on the wrecked sea front.
Women crying. Sea gulls circling, scavenging, cawing in pain.
Small pebbles sharp between the toes.
Sand too hot to walk on.


Gap toothed Christabel the gypsy.
Two-faced tourists.
The shouting of bull baiters, the fear of blood,
veins throbbing, gored and full of the lust for death.
The view over the deep gorge of Rhonda.
The constant grate of voices.
The constant silence.

Sunday 27 April 2014

Her face is reluctant



Her face is reluctant.

Her body recedes.
Her face is reluctant.
Her smile sticks in my throat.
Her eyes split my heart.
I am at my end, the destination.
Brakes scream a chorus.
Windows rattle a bonesong.
My mother's gone; my mother's gone.

Saturday 26 April 2014

Items

From 'Ten Notes on Items at Kettle's Yard'
 Item 5
‘Boats on Seas’ painted by Alfred Wallis. ‘My boat is so small and the sea is so wide.’ A hymn I learned at school.. I see the connection between this painting and John Banville’s novel, ‘ The Sea’, and the isolation of the individual, and the deeps; the plumbing of the unconscious; the currents which toss us willy nilly despite our attempts at control
Item 6
Three glasses among flowers. A picture by David Jones. I am aware they are standing proud against other objects in the background. A toe or is it a finger? Flowers. A little house? I ask myself if we can ever see the whole picture at once.


Friday 25 April 2014

Shelling Peas


Shelling Peas

The bed see- saws with screams.
Pain flecks the air.
Pillows prop up fear.
Seconds tick with anguish.
The world is hot and red.
“Bear down and grin on it.”
The nurse smells of late nights.
She slaps the miracle in irritation.

Thursday 24 April 2014

Squirrel Memories


Squirrel Memories

Stone still they would sit,
in the near distance,
flecked with sunlight,
dappled yellow-grey
against the grey stone.

You saw them, pointed.
we stopped.
Slowly, then, inch by inch,
we stalked them.
making no noise, we advanced.

A  twig cracked under foot.
the squirrel flew, tree- bound.
The slight branches swayed.
The leaves sighed.
Silence settled.

We caught them on the garden fence.
shot them  easily,
before they moved out of focus.
We captured them,
in a frame we could share

Tuesday 22 April 2014

St George


 St George

St George, a gallant. A dragon slayer.

Knight of the realm. His shield and crest a cross of red

on white, signifying a  virgin's purity of heart,

(defence enough against any sinful act or enemy of good).

My country's great defender of damsels and young loyal lads.

A royal favourite, supping at top table with the Queen's ladies;

riding with the King  on a snorting white charger

Through an oak filled forest canopied in green.

And as a school girl,  I glued the paper cross with pride

onto a cardboard cut-out of a shield. I held the crest

and wooden sword in belief that  George and Good

and English Pluck could kill the dragons

of my land; protect the children, poor, and weak,

against  evil. And give me strength to fight.


Monday 21 April 2014

Eccup Reservoir

   
Eccup Reservoir

The roads were clear,
until the last junction,
where traffic stopped
still.
He sulked.
“The car will overheat,
it will not function.
A Ford Cortina Mark 1
needs coddling.”

We turned  to go.
Where?
To Eccup Reservoir
where I had walked,
two years ago
by the edge of the water
in the hot July sun.

We zipped down country lanes,
asked ladies in brogue shoes,
directions.
Found nothing but an empty road,
which he said was boring…
nearly stamped his feet in rage.
(Thinking of his Classic Cars).
I said, “We can’t go home,
it’s three o’ clock,
the sun is out and you’ll just moan.
try that way.”

We stopped at a lay by.
A sign signaled footpath.
Up we trekked
his face grim,
but the sun fell softly
between the sycamores and oaks
dappling his face
with light.

He rallied round.

Hopscotch


Hopscotch

I was never too hot
on hopscotch.
I was rather more interested
in walking, one
foot in front of the other foot
like a fox, or reading,
or in any other damn thing
that didn’t involve hopping.

I never got the rules.
I couldn’t throw the stone,
or gauge the distance
with half closed eye
like the girl in 4Y.

I scowled at the game.
Sat instead and read a book,
hiding the grey secrets of my home.

Sunday 20 April 2014

Climbing

Climbing


Just below the summit we are scrambling
over outcrops, iron soled boots holding
good on  frigid crusts of rock and icing -
cake white tipped ledges; faces grimacing
against the screech, the howl, north bitch, biting
gusts of galing wind. Such unforgiving
grey. The mass of cloud scuds breathless, sucking
air from crevasses, gullies, clefts, gasping
a sudden mist. We must not lose our footing.
not at this height, white blinded, fingering
every niche for safety. Our legs trembling
we inch forward. Higher now, blood is thudding
a tribal tattoo, a  bone is drumming
a rhythm of wings beating.

Saturday 19 April 2014

Picnic


Picnic Rug

Beneath us a plaid rug, red and black and green squares
tucked neatly and flat under plates and dirty spoons
as we eat our dainty bites of moon shaped cake.
The rug no longer tugs us down to kiss
the soft undersides of lips and napes of neck.
No longer does it buckle softly under scuffled hugs
or rucks or bares soft grass and earth
to naked arms and legs akimbo
scattering cakes, crockery
         and crumbs like confetti.

Friday 18 April 2014

Betty


Betty

Down the cobbled road to Pye Nest,
through the soot black streets,
past granite houses, comes Great Aunt Betty.

She trip traps down the passage
conductor's leather bag bulging with coins;
silver sixpences and brass threepenny bits.

Uniformed green and grey
signifying Calder and Hebble buses
and journeys up the Ribble Valley

below Heptonstall, through Hebden Bridge,
by granite mills flanked on either side.
And I journey with her to the last stop.

Thursday 17 April 2014

Fairies and Witches



 








 
Fairies and witches.

A large black oak, (I knew through the nature table
in the classroom),
was the dwelling place of the black evil witch
with bony fingers, and the nose of a crow
sprouting warts and hairs, and sporting the
black gown of nuns who lived
on the corner where we used to thread daisies
into chains.

I was the witch.
The other girls were always fairies,
pink and white, pig tailed and right
about almost anything to do
with butterflies and the best wings.
I was the witch. I ran screaming,
my heart beating, after the angels.
They would turn, smiling, shrieking
and hit me -
bad witch that I was.




Tuesday 15 April 2014

Café




Café

Blue,blue sky

Brown leather sofas, brown on brown wood.

Spring is an open collar, a jacket unzipped.
A man scratches his chin, his eyes blue gimlets.

Hands in pockets, boat shoed and jean legged next to the panini strawberry smoothie filled shelves.

Cups and saucers clash rattle clink bang and tinkle.

A man whistles. Voices murmer talk laugh gently music tinnily hiss of steam.

Espresso. Cappuchino.

Fishbowl-like we sit as the riffraffing baseballcap toting redfaced pimplegooses pass with their fagmouthing chewinglips spitting gum and fuckingoaths and foulsmelling beer burping farts.
We stir the coffeefroth with chocolate hundreds and thousands bitter tasting the morning. 
Opposite she takes the top off her cappuchino with her spoon. Childspooning foamy froth into her mouth followed by a nicotine suck on an ecig her forefinger and third finger daintystretching. Her right hand. Ring flashing hand.

She sits forward sipdrinking in a reversible jacket ( light blue inside dark blue out) on top of a scarletsweatshirt purple with pink and white flowers.

Her hair is elfin, bleached heyblonde lipspink tight eyes heavy black and wrinkled.
She eats her panini filled with bacon and soft egg with tinybites flicking the crumbs from the corner of her mouth with an index finger. Pinkie separate.

Now she goes down on her food instead of bringing the food to her. The vestiges of youth sparkle in the whiteofaneye and the reflection of the light on her small pink and winterpale hands.

She sits on the edge. He relaxes back.
Side onto him she faces him. Tired.

Slaithwaite

Slaithwaite    
              
Just out of Huddersfield…
up a bit, with fields to your left
there’s a scrap of a village
like the rest of them
round there,
stone built terraces,
a cottage or two,
and a pub…
The Star.
And like in most places
thereabouts
it’s best be careful
how you say the name.
The locals might be straight
and speak right pleasantly
to a stranger.
But pronounce the village
as its spelt
and they’ll nod their heads
and tell you,
so you know you’ll never fit…
Slaith rhymes with cow,
and waite with it…
and that’s how you say Slaithwaite.